Fresh start!

Term's gonna start soon.

Have had enough rest... after the camps and stuff, it's time to word hark again.
I've grown up somewhat during this period. Learnt to prioritise better. I look at the people around me, and I find that I don't treasure some enough, and waste too much time on others. People whom I've always taken for granted, like my family and some of my close friends. They are always there but I've never really, REALLY cherished them. Just expected and received their presence and existence. I should learn to love them more.

And then there is another group of people. Those who have lied and hurt others to protect themselves. Those who are stubborn and just being buzzing flies fluttering around aimlessly in my life. A few who are so caught up in protecting themselves that they've forgotten how to feel for real, for others and for themselves. Those who hurt people... be it me or my friends. Unforgivable actions. Sad stories that I hear. Why do we waste time on such people? Shouldn't we divert our energies and attention from people who don't deserve it to people who really will be there with us all our lives?

This holiday, I've heard enough from people around me, stories of people who are unfaithful, or possessive, or just downright ridiculous. I've heard enough to make me lose faith in people. These days, people are just no longer loyal. There are people who claim to love another, yet have no qualms about hitting on others when their stead is away. People who claim to love another, yet make life so completely miserable for that person. People who claim to love another, yet have no difficulty in finding someone else the moment they get rejected. People who claim to love another, but don't show it at all. People who claim to love another, but keep letting him or her down.

It makes one wonder - what IS love? Where has all of the emotion and passion and sincerity that should be attached to the word LOVE gone? Has it become independent? Or is it that it has always been this way, but I'm only realising it now? I see people getting hurt everyday. People who make sacrifices for those who don't deserve it. I see people putting up with people they should just get rid of. Can we all stop letting each other down?

Come August, let me pray that things will go as planned. I'd very much prefer everything to come to a fullstop. No more late nights on the phone, being upset over people who don't deserve you. The trend of people around me - of letting others hurt them - has got to stop.

With the new term comes a new start. Hopefully everyone will sort their thoughts out, because I already have.


Boonie recently introduced me to a song - You're Not Sorry by Taylor Swift. It's good. I love her songs. This song goes out to all the people who have had someone let them down.



You're Not Sorry - Taylor Swift

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
No, oh, no, oh, no oh
Whoa, no, no